something old and something new

i started grad school today...well, officially anyway. it was weird because since i'm still at tech, i already know where everything is, i'm settled in with a group of friends (well, those who haven't graduated yet, ha ha :D), i'm involved with organizations on campus, i understand just the culture of the whole place i guess, and i think i'm taking it for granted. it still feels like undergrad, and after all, why shouldn't it? my routine looks much as it has for the past 4 years except for now i drive to school instead of rolling out of bed 10 minutes before class starts and running from my fraternity house home to make it on time. yeah, this happened more than a few times, ha ha :)

at the same time, though, i feel older, more experienced, more in-control of my life. maybe it's the new apartment with its full kitchen, more personal space, etc. maybe it's that i really am older than lots of the students (besides some of the grad students, of course) and their confusion on the first day was especially written all over their faces today, maybe it's because i just returned from one of the most challenging and most amazing experiences of my life and now have a little bit of a different outlook on things, maybe it's because i feel completely comfortable with myself and my personal relationships (for the first time in my life)...who knows. i felt really brazilian a couple of times today, then i felt old, then i felt young, and then i felt hungry (of course, ha ha). but regardless, however this whole next year unfolds, it will be dynamic, challenging, inspiring, and hopefully eye-opening, since i still have nooooo idea what i want to do with my life...still.

well, i still have time at least.

p.s. - vou escrever o parte português amanha, desculpe. agora é 1:00, e é mais dificil para escrever em uma outra lingua quando é muito tarde (ou cedo, ha ha :D)...ainda eu sinto muito saudade para vocês no brasil, e não se preocupem, amanha com certeza :) beijoooos!